Blessings

"Blessings" by Laura Story


We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

This song is really speaking to me this morning when I'm just dwelling in the prescence of my papa. He loves me so. He pursues me even in my darkest moments. He pursues me in my happy moments. He's always pursuing my heart. He's my first love. I tend to forget that.

Last week I went to a funeral for a guy I graduated with. It was very hard to say bye to him. I didn't really know him well but I was in band with him and I had a few classes with him. It is very hard to say bye to someone who is my age. It reminds me time and time again how precious life is, how beautiful it is no matter what kind of pain I go through, and how it is very short.No matter how hard this is for me to understand, why someone's life was cut so short, I am reminded that God has a plan. He has a plan. We can question that plan, questioning him doesn't make us any less of a believer, it just shows we want to know him and gain a better understanding of who he is. All I know is that God needed an angel up in heaven with him, and that angel was Ryan. This song was played at his funeral and it has been in my head ever since.

I believe God is speaking to me in several ways through this song.

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

This is my favorite part of the song it speaks to me and speaks to my core, to my soul. I have cried thousands and thousands of teardrops in the last year. This has been one of the most trying times of my life. I had several sleepless nights due to heartbreak, loss, brokenness, and aching in my heart due to the pain this world has caused me and will continue to cause me. My family and I have been put through so much pain and trials in the last year. Just when I thought they would get better my family is being hit with yet another trial. But God isn't trying to punish us. These are blessings even if it doesn't seem like that at the time. This last year has been a trying time for all of us. My mom just recently told me about all of the weeping and crying she did for me over the past year, well past three years, but especially this year and the years I was involved with my ex.

God works in mysterious ways. I don't always know his plan but I have faith in his timing and trust in his will. My mom not only told me about all the praying and weeping she has done for me, but also that this song was always in her head when she was thinking about me and the struggles we have been through.I have cried time and time again over this song, as she has. God has linked us together through this song. Bringing us back together, to the friendship we had before all of this crap happened. This is a blessing. Such a beautiful blessing. My mom was my best friend all throughout my life. She was my go to person. God really blessed me with an amazing, beautiful, strong woman of God for a mother. It has taken me alot of time to remember that and to remember just how blessed I truely am.

This song was and still is very encouraging to me. God continues to speak to me through it. I know he is by my side and will never leave me, even if I get sad and angry and feel like he has abandoned me. I know that he is working in not only my life, but my whole families lives. It's very beautiful to see the Lord work.

I hope you are encouraged, because I was :)


His beloved,

Gigi