"Rolling In The Deep"
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your shit bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won't be shared
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating
Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.
I am not going to pretend I am okay right now. I don't have enough strength. But the Lord is my refuge and my stronghold and will give me that strength. I have had the busiest week I have had in a long time. This has helped me get my mind off of the situation a bit but it still stings. I haven't been crying as much as I was and I seem to be laughing more.
I feel like part of me has died. Like I have experienced a death in my family. There is a part of my heart that is empty. My heart is in mourning. I have never felt this ever. I have been in love before, but nothing like this. I was willling to give up everything for you and you were going to let me. I am in love with what I thought we had but in reality if you were lying and cheating on me we had nothing at all. I have no trust right now. None.
Having someone tell you that they can live without you and for the past 3 years they have been telling you they can't is hard to take and is a slap in the face. I am the one that left. I had a reason to. Everbody has opinions on this situation. That since he cheated it should be easier, that I shouldn't love him anymore, that I shouldnt care, etc. I understand where everyone is coming from. People say love is a choice and you have a choice to get over this. Yes, I do have a choice and with God's help he will heal me of this. But it will take time. Lots of it. And for now I am not okay and it still hurts as much as it did the first day. I am not a patient person at all and I just want it to go away now. I don't want to fill this void in my heart and soul with another relationship that won't work out in the end anyway. Right now I am not capable of opening my heart to another. This one hurt enough. In time I will be able to but not now.
I just want to be restored. I wish I could forget all of this and wish none of it ever had happened. If I knew this would have happened in the end I would have never gotten involved. Living day to day is a struggle. Not waking up to his text messages is a big one for me. Those always helped me get through the day. Not talking to him after I have had a long day of school and work. Not hearing his voice or skyping. This hurts a lot too. Knowing that he isn't feeling the same pain as me and that I cared so deeply with all my heart and he didn't. That is a stab in the heart for sure. The thought of him being with anybody else swallows me up and leaves me hypverventilating. This will go away in time but right now it isn't.
This has been the most tramuatic experience of my life. Even though I am hurting God has been blessing me and showing me he will never leave me. He has been blessing me with great friends, a great support system, and people who will just listen to me vent. I am very appreciative of that. Also, when I was at work yesterday Jesus blessed me with an angel. I was sacking up an elderly man's grocceries. As I was doing that he started talking to me. He was saying you will be okay. You have so much going for you. I know you have been through a lot lately and you feel like giving up. Trust in him and let him lead you on his path. Cast all your fears upon him because he cares for you and loves you. Don't let all the crap that has been going on in your life ruin the beautiful soul that you have. Then he said I will be praying for you Grace. Don't give up. I was speechless!! This was so crazy but I was so encouraged. He didn't know who I was or anything about me but God gave him the words to say and it truely was an angel! God has been blessing me with lots of angels lately. He is showing his love for me. He knows I am in pain. He wants to take care of me. That is why I have been crying out to him. Giving him all of my fears, angers, emotions, frustrations, giving it all to him. I don't want to be bitter, I don't want to be filled with anger, I don't want to have hate in my heart. I just don't want to feel this way anymore. Jesus please take my mourning and sorrows away. I can't handle them.I need to hold on to the hope that things will get better. I am just waiting for when that happens.
Gigi
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Breaking Soul Ties
Step #1 to breaking soul ties:
Repent of any sins that involve that person. I have confessed to my Lord Jesus in heaven of all of the sins I have committted.
If you have had adultery, fornication, etc., it is vital that you repent of those sins and receive God's forgiveness for it before you can go about breaking the soul tie.
Step #2 to breaking soul ties:
Forgive the person of any wrongs done
If you have any unforgiveness in your heart against the person, you must choose to release that bitterness and forgive the person. The Bible is clear that bitterness defiles a man.
I have forgiven him of any wrong doing he has committed against me. I was bitter and I realize that I was. I no longer want to be a bitter or scorned woman. In order to move on I need to give him my forgivness I just hope that he will forgive me of the wrong doings I have done against him and that he won't have bitterness in his heart against me.
Step #3 to breaking soul ties:
Renounce any covenants made with the person
If you have made any spoken commitments, vows or even simply saying, "I will love you forever", it has ample power in the spiritual realm to bind the soul to that person (form a soul tie). The tongue is quite capable of binding the soul and can be a great means to create soul ties:
Proverbs 6:2, "Thou art snared with the words of thy mouth, thou art taken with the words of thy mouth."
These spoken covenants need to be renounced in order to break the soul tie. When you renounce something, you basically take them back verbally. You spoke them verbally, now it is time to take them back verbally. For example, if a woman has had a soul tie with a man who was not the one, and said she would never be able to love another man, then this needs to be renounced if she wants to break the soul tie. Such a woman could renounce it by saying something like, "I renounce having said that I will never be able to love another man."
I have verbally renounced all of the spoken covenants I had spoke when I was with him. Speaking it verbally brings peace to my heart and brings me comfort. I no longer want to be tied to him. I will be able to let God bring a man into my life later on when the time is right and I won't be stuck to this person the rest of my life. I believed that I would never be able to love another again. I don't want to believe this. I want to believe in my heart that if I follow Jesus and live out his will for my life he will bring someone truely amazing into my life. I want to continue to feel peace and comfort in my heart knowing I have done the right thing.
Step #4 to breaking soul ties:
Get rid of any gifts exchanged
Gifts also symbolize a relationship and can hold a soul tie in place. If a person has a ring, personal gifts, cards, jewelry and other 'relationship gifts' from a previous relationship, then it is time to get rid of them. Holding onto such gifts symbolizes that the relationship is still in good standing and can actually hold the soul tie in place even after it has been renounced. You can learn more about the power of symbols in the teaching Symbolic Representations.
This step in the process is very hard for me. He gave me a lot of his posessions and I finally boxed them up and am going to get rid of them. All of the clothes, hats, flowers, candles, teddy bears, rings, necklaces. In order for me to break this tie I need to get rid of this. I can't hold on to these things. I want to but I know that if I hold on to these things that I will not be able to break this tie and I need to break this tie for my heart.
Step #5 to breaking soul ties:
Renounce and break the soul tie in Jesus' name
Verbally renouncing something carries a lot of weight in the spiritual realm. Just as vows can bind the soul, renouncing can release the soul from bonds. Jesus said that whatsoever you shall loose will be loosed in heaven (the heavenly realm, or spiritual realm). You can renounce and loose yourself from an ungodly soul tie by simply speaking something like this from your heart:
"I now renounce and loose myself from any ungodly soul ties formed between myself and __Justin______, and I break these ungodly soul ties in Jesus' name."
This was my devotional today. I have been struggling ALOT and I hope that this can help me to have more confidence in my choice of leaving and help me to be confident in my choice to move on from this. I pray for confidence that I could have a confident heart. I pray that I will have a purified heart and will be pure in Holy in Jesus' sight.
I know that I have went down the wrong path for almost the last year. In my mind it's been almost the past 3 years. I feel like Satan has had a stronghold over my heart since I went to college. I was blinded to what was right and wrong. I have given my heart to more people than just this one person. I am sorry for all of the people I have turned my back on. I have appreciated everyones prayers for me. Even though at the time I was resentful and was not happy that people were praying for me. I am so glad God got in the way and in my path and stopped me. So VERY thankful. At first I was angry that this had to happen. I was angry with God and I was angry at the people praying for me. I ask for forgiveness. God is going to transform my heart and use this somehow. I went through pain and despair but God can get me through anything. I really need to learn to trust again. All of my trust has been broken. And I haven't trusted the Lord with my heart, soul, or life.
I want guidance. I need guidance. I want strong women of God to stand behind me and help me grow in my relationship with Christ. Who is up for this challenge?
Gigi
Repent of any sins that involve that person. I have confessed to my Lord Jesus in heaven of all of the sins I have committted.
If you have had adultery, fornication, etc., it is vital that you repent of those sins and receive God's forgiveness for it before you can go about breaking the soul tie.
Step #2 to breaking soul ties:
Forgive the person of any wrongs done
If you have any unforgiveness in your heart against the person, you must choose to release that bitterness and forgive the person. The Bible is clear that bitterness defiles a man.
I have forgiven him of any wrong doing he has committed against me. I was bitter and I realize that I was. I no longer want to be a bitter or scorned woman. In order to move on I need to give him my forgivness I just hope that he will forgive me of the wrong doings I have done against him and that he won't have bitterness in his heart against me.
Step #3 to breaking soul ties:
Renounce any covenants made with the person
If you have made any spoken commitments, vows or even simply saying, "I will love you forever", it has ample power in the spiritual realm to bind the soul to that person (form a soul tie). The tongue is quite capable of binding the soul and can be a great means to create soul ties:
Proverbs 6:2, "Thou art snared with the words of thy mouth, thou art taken with the words of thy mouth."
These spoken covenants need to be renounced in order to break the soul tie. When you renounce something, you basically take them back verbally. You spoke them verbally, now it is time to take them back verbally. For example, if a woman has had a soul tie with a man who was not the one, and said she would never be able to love another man, then this needs to be renounced if she wants to break the soul tie. Such a woman could renounce it by saying something like, "I renounce having said that I will never be able to love another man."
I have verbally renounced all of the spoken covenants I had spoke when I was with him. Speaking it verbally brings peace to my heart and brings me comfort. I no longer want to be tied to him. I will be able to let God bring a man into my life later on when the time is right and I won't be stuck to this person the rest of my life. I believed that I would never be able to love another again. I don't want to believe this. I want to believe in my heart that if I follow Jesus and live out his will for my life he will bring someone truely amazing into my life. I want to continue to feel peace and comfort in my heart knowing I have done the right thing.
Step #4 to breaking soul ties:
Get rid of any gifts exchanged
Gifts also symbolize a relationship and can hold a soul tie in place. If a person has a ring, personal gifts, cards, jewelry and other 'relationship gifts' from a previous relationship, then it is time to get rid of them. Holding onto such gifts symbolizes that the relationship is still in good standing and can actually hold the soul tie in place even after it has been renounced. You can learn more about the power of symbols in the teaching Symbolic Representations.
This step in the process is very hard for me. He gave me a lot of his posessions and I finally boxed them up and am going to get rid of them. All of the clothes, hats, flowers, candles, teddy bears, rings, necklaces. In order for me to break this tie I need to get rid of this. I can't hold on to these things. I want to but I know that if I hold on to these things that I will not be able to break this tie and I need to break this tie for my heart.
Step #5 to breaking soul ties:
Renounce and break the soul tie in Jesus' name
Verbally renouncing something carries a lot of weight in the spiritual realm. Just as vows can bind the soul, renouncing can release the soul from bonds. Jesus said that whatsoever you shall loose will be loosed in heaven (the heavenly realm, or spiritual realm). You can renounce and loose yourself from an ungodly soul tie by simply speaking something like this from your heart:
"I now renounce and loose myself from any ungodly soul ties formed between myself and __Justin______, and I break these ungodly soul ties in Jesus' name."
This was my devotional today. I have been struggling ALOT and I hope that this can help me to have more confidence in my choice of leaving and help me to be confident in my choice to move on from this. I pray for confidence that I could have a confident heart. I pray that I will have a purified heart and will be pure in Holy in Jesus' sight.
I know that I have went down the wrong path for almost the last year. In my mind it's been almost the past 3 years. I feel like Satan has had a stronghold over my heart since I went to college. I was blinded to what was right and wrong. I have given my heart to more people than just this one person. I am sorry for all of the people I have turned my back on. I have appreciated everyones prayers for me. Even though at the time I was resentful and was not happy that people were praying for me. I am so glad God got in the way and in my path and stopped me. So VERY thankful. At first I was angry that this had to happen. I was angry with God and I was angry at the people praying for me. I ask for forgiveness. God is going to transform my heart and use this somehow. I went through pain and despair but God can get me through anything. I really need to learn to trust again. All of my trust has been broken. And I haven't trusted the Lord with my heart, soul, or life.
I want guidance. I need guidance. I want strong women of God to stand behind me and help me grow in my relationship with Christ. Who is up for this challenge?
Gigi
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