Innocence

Innocence-Taylor Swift-I absolutely love this song and it's how i'm feelin.


I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin’ to get it back

Wasn’t it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn’t it beautiful when you believed in everything?
And everybody believed in you?

It’s all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you’ve been
You’re still an innocent
You’re still an innocent

There’s some things you can’t speak of
But tonight you’ll live it all again
You wouldn’t be shattered on the floor now
If only you would sing what you know now then

Wasn’t it easier in your firefly-catchin’ days?
And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn’t it beautiful runnin’ wild ’til you fell asleep?
Before the monsters caught up to you?

It’s all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you’ve been
You’re still an innocent

It’s okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin’ up now
Who you are is not what you did
You’re still an innocent

Time turns flames to embers
You’ll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too

Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never to late to
Be brand new

It’s all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights are still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you’ve been
You’re still an innocent

It’s okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin’ up now
Who you are is not what you did
You’re still an innocent


My life has changed alot in the past few months.I feel like I have been doing a lot of growing up and a lot of soul searching. Lifeguarding is offically done. I really do miss it. Well I'd have to say I miss the people more than lifeguarding itself. Laurel guards rocked this summer. I am currently unemployed, which is very lame. Findng a job in Sioux Falls is nearly impossible. This also sucks because I am only taking 3 classes at the moment because I did not make it into the nursing program for the fall and those are the only credits I need. I spend my days searching for jobs, doing homework, and working out. Prettyy boring. Also, my parents are getting very sick of me living at home. It's not my choice to be here but right now my financial situation is not very pretty. My parent's don't agree with any of the decisions I am making right now. I feel like they don't support me like a family should and they like to bring me down as much as they can. But I am 20 years old. I am taking control of my life and not going to let them control me any longer. Even though it doesn't seem like anything is going my way at the moment, lots of amazing thngs are happening. I am doing a new diet which is called Ideal Protein. This is the start of my fifth week on this diet and I have lost 20 pounds and 17 inches so far. I feel so much better about myself and I am a lot happier. I still have a lot of work to do but I know that I can do it.I have so much more energy to do things and I'm excited all of my clothes are getting big on me. :) Also, an old flame has came back into my life :) He is amazing. He is a great support system; something I really need. He builds me up, he's always there to listen, he always knows what to say, he's just everything I have ever wanted. I don't know where I would be without him, probably completely lost. I'd have to admit I am head over heels. I'm excited to see where this goes :) I am planning on moving out of the parents house in January. I finally have a plan and I feel so content. I am excited of all the lifechanges that are going to be happening in the next few months. I have been meeting a lot of new people lately. I am extremly blessed. I am loving life right now, even though not everything is going my way. Life is beautiful and precious and I don't want to take any moment for granted. But life can be very hard and it likes to throw me obstacles. I know everything will work out the way it's supposed to.

Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and a hope."


Gigi