Awaken Me.

Tonight I went to coffee with my best friend Amber Taylor. I love her and she is such an encouragement in my life and is a gift sent by God. We had a great discussion about her internship she did at IHOP for three months. I have been struggling with God's direction in my life. I want to hear his voice. I want to live for him and I want to know his plan. Amber is encouraging me and praying for me. My heart is damaged. I have neglected my heart and I have neglected God. I am asking God to forgive me for neglecting his heart. I am also asking God to forgive me for neglecting my heart. I have neglected my spirtitual life. I have wasted a lot of time. I have been out of high school year two years. I have been going to college but I have felt an emptiness. I just recently applied for the nursing program at USD at the university center. I was not accepted. At first I was competely devasted. But God put a peace in my heart that I cannot explain. I know that it was his plan that I did not get in the nursing program this semester like I wanted. But I think theres other reasons for this also. It may not be my timing but it is God's timing. I need to trust him. I want the lord to restore my brokenness. I want him to make me feel alive again. I want to live my life out through my heart. I ask that the lord would put his hand upon my heart. I need his guidance. I want to feel him. I want him to take away the dullness and coldness and complacency. I want him to take away my wandering spirit. I want him to fascinate me and I want him to captivate me. I want him to own me. HE IS MINE AND I AM HIS. I want him to capture all of my affections. Im asking that he would put his hand upon my heart. I just want to feel him. I want to feel again. I want to live. I don't want to life in this emptiness and brokenness anymore. Awaken me by Misty Edwards is just speaking to me. I just want forgiveness. I want to be forgiven for my negligence and my busy life. I have WASTED so much time. I want him to forgive me for my preoccupied mind.





Misty Edwards Awaken Me

Misty Edwards Awaken Me

Forgive me for neglecting Your heart,
Forgive me for neglecting mine.
Forgive me for my busy life,
Forgive me for wasting time,

For I'm dark from working in the vineyard,
but my heart I have forgotten

Put Your hand upon my heart
Put Your hand upon my heart
Put Your hand upon my heart
I want to feel

Let me know that I'm alive
Let me know that I'm alive
Let me know that I'm alive
I want to feel (You)

Take away the dullness
Take away a proneness to boredom
Take away my wandering spirit
And take this wild soul

Fascinate me
Captivate me
Come and hold me like you do

Fascinate me
Captivate me
Capture this imagination
Capture my affections, too

Fascinate
Captivate
God, Come and capture my imagination

Fascinate
Captivate
God, Capture my affections, too

I want You to awaken me
Came awaken me
Awaken me
Awaken me
Awaken me

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