I am more

Sometimes I feel like I have fallen too far to love. That my mistakes are too great to overcome. But then I look to the cross. Jesus didn't die for "perfect" people. He died to cover a multitude of sins. Yes, I have made mistakes in the past, I have created problems, I have strayed, and I can't go back to who I once was, but I am remade and can start fresh today. Whenever I start to feel like I have fallen to far to be loved or to be forgiven I think of this song...

There's a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide

She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"

But don't you know who you are,
What's been done for you?
Yeah don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

Well she tries to believe it
That she's been given new life
But she can't shake the feeling
That it's not true tonight

She knows all the answers
And she's rehearsed all the lines
And so she'll try to do better
But then she's too weak to try

But don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
(From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/tenth-avenue-north-lyrics/you-are-more-lyrics.html)
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You've been remade
You've been remade.
You've been remade.
You've been remade.


Life is crazy. It's so complicated and tough. But it is beautiful and there are lessons to be learned. When we are at are lowest point Jesus is there holding us up. Life throws so many obstacles and hurdles. I've been going through so many for 3 years. I didn't ask God for guidance through these tough times and I just went on my way and did what I wanted to do. That is why I made horrible choices and made past mistakes. Because I wasn't looking to him or seeking his guidance. I love this line This is not about where you've been, But where your brokenness brings you to. It is so true. I am completely broken. I am more broken than I ever have been. But I am not drowning in my sorrows. I am looking to the one who gave me new life. I have no idea where life is going to take me. I have no idea what God has planned for me. But I have to trust that the plan is good not just good but amazing. I have a problem with putting my own two sense into God's plan and that is how I have ended up in the predicament that I am in right now. I am not perfect. I am hurt. I am broken. I have been decieved. I feel a struggle going on in my heart between what is good and what is not. I have been stupid. I have been ignorant. I have hurt people. I can't take anything back that I have done. I so wish I could take back everything. But I can't. I can bring it to Jesus though. Cry out to him and ask him to heal me. The pain will be gone but the scars will always be there. I am already scarring. It's a challenging but a beautiful process. Jesus has forgiven me. I am asking for that same forgiveness from everybody who I have hurt in the past 3 years or in my lifetime. Now I just have to wait on the Lord. Wait on the Lord for many answers and I am afraid to hear some of the answers. But he will guide me through it and I will get by and be much stronger because of it. Waiting is the hardest part. I am waiting and it is very painful. I just need to learn to be patient. This song reminds me of what I am going through right now too.




I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord



I am waiting. I am peaceful. I never thought I would be where I am right now. But God has picked me up and carried me through all of this pain. I am stronger than I ever thought I would be. It is only by God's grace. So I will wait. Wait for the answers that could change my life forever.

His child,
Gigi