Friday, May 21, 2010

Love Sick




Lovesick by Misty Edwards is how my heart is feeling right now. The lyrics are beautiful.

I am lovesick, for my Beloved
My Beloved and my Friend
Only YOU can satisfy

Try as I may to chase another Lover,
I find there is, there is no other
For only YOU can satisfy

And happy am I, to live a hungry life
Blessed am I, to thirst
Disillusionment, it is my gift within
I am blessed, I am blessed among men!

To be lovesick, for my beloved
My beloved and my friend
Only YOU can satisfy

Try as I may to chase another Lover,
I find there is, there is no other

All the other Lovers fade away
Only YOU can satisfy

And happy am I, to live a hungry life
And blessed am I, to thirst
My desire for You, it is my gift within
I am blessed, I am blessed among men!

This is the generation is trying everything
This is the generation of Jacob
This is the generation doubt all those things

Only YOU can satisfy

This is the generation is looking for the face of God
This is the generation of Jacob
This is the generation
Searching for face of God
And only YOU can satisfy

The Spirit and the bride, we say, come!
We say come

I am so lovesick for my beloved. He is the only one that can satisfy. He is the only one that satisfies my every desire, soul, and heart. He is my beloved. He is my friend. He is my father. He is my maker. He is my beautiful savior. I have tried to chase other lovers but He is my only lover. He is the only one that satisfies. I am happy. I am hungry. I am thirsty. I am blessed. I desire my beloved. I desire Jesus. This is the generation that is looking for the face of God. I am looking for the face of God. I am searching for the face of God. He is the only one who can satisify my every need and desire. He is all I want. All the other lovers of my life fade away. He remains. He stays constant. He is my lover. He is my beloved. Come Lord Jesus.


His beloved,

Grace

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Pure Bride





Much too often people view a single woman as though she should be pitied rather than envied. This is far from the truth. A single woman has the advantage of being able to develop her love relationship with Christ without the distractions that a husband or family brng to one's heart. God desires to know us as women. Satan's first attack upon the human race was sly effort to destroy Eve's confidence in the kindness of God. Satan is continuing to lie to Eve's daughters. This is alienating women from the One who loves them as they need to be loved. Deep within a woman's soul there is a longing for a gentle embrace of the God Who Is, not that God that the enemy has devised. Boaz spoke of Ruth's devotion to God when he said,

"May the Lord reward your work, and your wages be full from the Lord, the God of Israel, under whose wings you have come to seek refuge." Ruth 2:12

Ruth clung to Naomi's God as her own even though her mother-in-law spoke negatively about him.

"And she said to them, 'Do not call me Naomi; call me Mara[bitter], for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me. I went out full, but the Lord has brought me back empty.. the Lord has witnessed against me and the Almighty has afflicted me?'" Ruth 1:20-21.

Will you be devoted to God like Naomi? Naomi was very bitter towards God. "If we think of God as cold and exacting, we shall find it impossible to love Him, and our lives will be ridden with fear." Our past experiences, present circumstances, or parent's devotion or lack thereof may cause us to have an incorrect view of God. The only way we can discover who we really our and who God really is is by taking refuge and devoting our lives to him.

As a single woman, I have a wonderful oppurtunity to use my time to fellowship with God. When you love someone, you give them your heart, the center of your being. God asks for no less from us. He desires a totally devoted heart. Deuteronomy 6:5 says,

"Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength."

He was us to love him with our hearts, our souls, and all our of strength.

In order for us to love Jesus with true love, we must know him intimately. In Philippians 3:10 Paul expressed the desire to "know" God. Paul was desiring to know God intimately. In Second Peter 1:3 it says that everything pertaining to life and godliness is yours "through the true knowledge of him." In Genesis 4:1 when Scripture speaks of the intimate relations Eve had when she "knew" or "had been with" her husband. Do you have a devotion to God that causes people to marvel at how intimately you know Him? Do you know God in a way that causes Him to be an intimate, personal part of your being as yu may desire a husband to be one day? I know that I desire that more than anything. I desire to know God intimately and personal.

As women, we have been created with a desire to be known, not just in a physical way, but deeply known and intimately known. Most woman believe that a man will fill this for them someday. I have believed this lie over and over again. I has searched for guys just because I wanted them to fill this part of my heart and I wanted them to fill my longings. The truth is no man can fill this. Only God can fill this deep longing. God knows our deep longings for intimate love. He is the lover our of our souls and can fill this need completely.

Our father is incapable of doing evil. He loves us and forgives us completely and forgets confessed sins and grievances. Is this the God that you know? If we retract in fear, try to hide things, and give excuses when we do something we feel God would not like, it shows that our knowledge of Chris is inaccurate. I struggle with this sometimes. Sometimes I feel so ashamed because I did things that God definitely would not like that I stop praying to him or start being more distant. This is not the way I should handle it. I should cry out to him and ask for his forgiveness.

God wants to do us good not evil. Jeremiah 29:11 says He wants to give us a future and a hope. Has your wrong picture of God been invented by the enemy in order to rob you of a true knowledge and love of God? Let us not be decieved like Eve in the garden. Get to know the One your heart truely desires to love. For us to love God we must know Him intimately, personally, and devotedly. This requires us to get to know Him by seeking Him.

Seeking God is very similiar to developing a friendship. We can talk to him, listen to Him, write eachother letters, think about eachother, and many other things. Jeremiah 29:12-13 promises that a woman who diligently seeks God with all her heart and will find Him. Our hearts are the key to devotion to God. To find God we must seek him with our whole heart. A halfhearted search is not sufficient. We can't being doing our own thing and trying to seek God at the time. We need to give up ourselves and seek God and only Him. We have to seek him 365 days our of the year. Not 363 or 364. Giving Christ your heart means you are not free to give it away to other things or people that come into our lives. If other people get in the way then we are making idols for ourselves. Devoting our lives to Christ means giving everything or nothing at all.

If we are to know God intimately, then we must seek Him, not only with a whole heart, but also with a clean heart. When we think of the word Bride we think, beautiful, clean, pure woman in white. No grime or dirt but the image of purity. As Christians we are part of the Bride of Christ. Any grime or dirt of sin will mar our image before him. In order to be the Bride of Christ we must clean up any blot of sin that may arise between you and your heavenly sweetheart. Sin causes God to back away from a person. Sin is disgusting to Him. He will not abide with it. If you want your devotion to God to be complete, don't merely brush at sin lightly. Get in there and confess it, clean it up, and clear it out. Get rid of it period. Psalm 51:10 says, " Creat in me a clean heart, O God. "

To grow in your knowledge of God, you must seek God correctly, which means you must also seek Him with pure heart. A woman with a pure heart for God does not focus on what He gives, but delights in who He is. I want to have a pure heart and delight in who He is. To find God, you must seek Him with pure motives. Seek Him for who He is, not just for what He can do for you. I struggle with this I focus on what he can do for me constantly but I want to seek Him for who He is.

If you want to get to know the Lord, you must seek Him not only with a whole, clean, and pure heart, but also with a listening heart. During your God are you learning to listen to God? When I would pray to Him I used to just ask for things and talk about myself but He is really showing me how to listen to Him and giving me a listening heart. As a result, my devotion to Him grows and grows and it can do the same for you.

Singleness is not a curse. Singleness puts us in a advantageous position because, more than likely, we are able to spend much more time to seek the Lord now than we ever will be when we are married. The word of God illustrates the advantageous position of the single woman in relation to life. "...An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of the world-how she can please her husband." -1 Corinthians 7:34. God says the unmarried woman has the advantage when it comes to her devotion to the Lord. A single woman can give the Lord what a married woman rarely can-undistracted devotion. The time to devleop a consistent devotional life cannot wait until we are married. Many single women waste valuable years as they "wait for life to begin". I myself have wasted time searching for guys and "waiting for my life to begin" but my life has already began.

I used to hate being single. I really really hated it. I felt like all my other friends were in relationships and I was being left behind. This is when God transformed my heart. God is blessing me with precious time. Once I have found "Mr. Right" I will never have this special time again. I want to come into His chambers, delight in His prescence. Im sorry this got long once I started writing I just couldn't stop.

In his love,

Grace



I took little bits and pieces from Lady In Waiting by Debby Jones and Jackie Kendall.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

By Faith




Hebrews 11
By Faith
1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2This is what the ancients were commended for.
3By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible. 4By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead.

5By faith Enoch was taken from this life, so that he did not experience death; he could not be found, because God had taken him away. For before he was taken, he was commended as one who pleased God. 6And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

7By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness that comes by faith.

8By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. 9By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. 10For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God.

11By faith Abraham, even though he was past age—and Sarah herself was barren—was enabled to become a father because he[a]considered him faithful who had made the promise. 12And so from this one man, and he as good as dead, came descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as countless as the sand on the seashore.

13All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.

17By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Isaac as a sacrifice. He who had received the promises was about to sacrifice his one and only son, 18even though God had said to him, "It is through Isaac that your offspring[b] will be reckoned."[c] 19Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuratively speaking, he did receive Isaac back from death.

20By faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau in regard to their future.

21By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of Joseph's sons, and worshiped as he leaned on the top of his staff.

22By faith Joseph, when his end was near, spoke about the exodus of the Israelites from Egypt and gave instructions about his bones.

23By faith Moses' parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king's edict.

24By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh's daughter. 25He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a short time. 26He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. 27By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king's anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible. 28By faith he kept the Passover and the sprinkling of blood, so that the destroyer of the firstborn would not touch the firstborn of Israel.

29By faith the people passed through the Red Sea[d] as on dry land; but when the Egyptians tried to do so, they were drowned.

30By faith the walls of Jericho fell, after the people had marched around them for seven days.

31By faith the prostitute Rahab, because she welcomed the spies, was not killed with those who were disobedient.[e]

32And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the prophets, 33who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. 35Women received back their dead, raised to life again. Others were tortured and refused to be released, so that they might gain a better resurrection. 36Some faced jeers and flogging, while still others were chained and put in prison. 37They were stoned[f]; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated— 38the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.

39These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. 40God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.


God is calling us to live a life of faith. He wants us to put our faith in him. For years God has been waiting for me to surrender my life to him. I have faith in him. I give him my plans, my goals, my dreams, my everything. Everything is his. I don't want to have fear or doubt his plans. His plans are the best. I don't want the enemy to put fear or doubt in my heart. When we put our faith in him it satisfies our beloved. Our daily use of our faith brings Jesus such satsifaction. Psalm 37:3-4:

3 Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4 Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

If we put our trust in him he will give us the desires of our hearts. God knows whats best for us. Faith does not eliminate our questions. But faith knows where to take our questions. Take your questions to him.

Romans 10:17, "So faith comes from hearing, and hearing by the word of Christ." Put your faith in him. Listen to what he is telling you. Are you listening? Are you spending time with him? Are you spending time in his word? God will give us what we want if we ask, but it is on his timing not ours.

Romans 8:32, " He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things?" He wants to freely give to us we just need to ask him and put our faith in him.

Do not fear putting your trust in Him. 1 Peter 5:7 says, " Casting all your anxiety upon Him, because He cares for you." Cast all your fears and anxieties on him. Do not fear putting your faith in him. He will not forsake you. He loves you. He wants you to put your faith in him. He wants to work through you. He cares and loves us.

Are you afraid of putting your faith in him? Do you doubt that Jesus has the best plans for you? Pray to him. Seek him. He will give you the desires of your heart you just need to put your faith in him. Putting your faith in him will not be easy but he will never forsake you and never leave you. He cares and loves you and he cares and loves me. What is holding you back from putting your faith in him today?

Monday, May 10, 2010

Unrelenting Pursuit

I have been spending time with my beloved a lot lately. He is teaching me so much about himself and is speaking to me in amazing ways. He is speaking to me specifically about having diligence. One verse that he continues to give me is 1 Corithians 15:58 which says, " Therefore my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain." I want to have diligence in ministry and teaching. I feel like God is calling me to get involved in teaching some type of bible study or sunday school. I am continually praying about this for him to open up oppurtunities for me.

He is calling me to be diligent in encouraging others. I want to be sharing the name of Jesus Christ. I want nothing to hold me back. I want to be there to help others when they are in need. I want my life to be an encouragement. I want Christ to shine through me. Isaiah 50:4 says, "The Soverign Lord has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught." The Lord is instructing me and my tongue. My very words can be a ministry of healing and encouragment. Proverbs 15:4, "The tongue that brings healing is a tree of life, but a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit." I want to speak words of encouragment not words of deceit. I need to be reaching out to others by encouraging them, sharing my faith, praying with people, just showing love to others like Christ showed his love for us on the cross.

I want to be diligent in prayer. "A prayer partnership serves as one of the greatest assets for accomplishing the deepest and highest work of the human spirit:prayer." I want to find a group where I can just pray with them. God has given me a heart of prayer. I am constantly praying to him about every aspect of my life. I never thought I would spend hours and hours on end in prayer but my beloved is transforming my heart.

He wants me to be diligent in serving him. He is giving me a servant heart. I am asking him to transform me into a fearless servant. I want to be a self-less giver. At this time in life God is using my singleness as a time to serve. A time to spend with him giving him my time and living for him. I want to be like Ruth who diligently worked at what she could. I have limitless ministry oppurtunities. I am a single woman who desires Jesus and to serve him. I don't want to let anything hold me back. I want to follow his plan for me and serve in any way he wants me to.

I want to be diligent in the ministry of writing. Proverbs 11:25 clearly states this for me, " He who refreshes others will himself be refreshed." I want to show love by writing notes, letters, or calling people just to encourage them. I want Christ's love to shine in and through me. He wants me to be involved in the lives of those around me and is giving me many oppurtunities to do this.

Christ is calling me to be diligent in listening. Being content to listen to someone today is a gift I can give. A listener provides healing audience for someone who is hurting. I want to have a loving, listening heart Lord Jesus.

He wants me to be diligent in hospitality. Reaching out to those who are hurting. God I ask that you would give me hospitality, that I could show others your love through my actions.

My beloved wants me to be diligent in helping others. This requires my time. I want to give up my time to help others. 1 Corithians 10:31, " Whether, then, you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God." I want to do everything for the glory of him. "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men." Colossians 3:23.


I am diligently going after Jesus. I am surrendering everything to him. I want to be his servant. No matter the cost. Jesus spoke clearly about the constant public display of our service to him. " Everything they do is done for men to see.." Matthew 23:5. I want my life to be a living example of service for him. I want to the Lord to move in and through me. I ask that he would work through me. I want to be focused on him and only him. I don't want any distractions. I ask that the Lord would take away all of my distractions and all of my idols. I want to give him my time, my service, and my life.


Free hours,
Not wasted by me,
Using my free time,
To serve only Thee.
Realizing how temporary free time will be
Never to regret a missed oppurtunity,
For others to be blest,
Through yielded me.
-JMK

Monday, May 3, 2010

Jesus is Anointed by a Sinful Woman

Luke 7:36-50 -
NIV
Now one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with them, so he went to the Pharisee's house and reclined at the table. When a woman who had lved a snful lfe n that town learned that Jesus was eatng at the Pharisee's house, she brought an alabaster jar of perfume, and as she stood behind him at his feet weep, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them. When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, "If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is-that she is a sinner." Jesus answered hm, "Simon I have something to tell you." Two men owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii and the other fifty. Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he canceled the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more? Simon relied, "I suppose the one who had the bigger debt canceled." You have judged correctly, Jesus replied. Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, " Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. Therefore , I tell you her many sins have been forgiven-for she loved much. But he who has forgiven little loves little. Then Jesus said to her, "Your sins are forgiven." The other guests began to say among themselves, " Who is this who even forgives sins?" Jesus said to the woman, " Your faith has saved you; go in peace."


As I was having God time last night I felt God was leading to me to this passage of scripture. I was born a sinner. I gave my life to Christ when I was a child and then again in high school. Then I left for college and my life changed. I turned my back on my beloved. I denied him and I did not want to have anything to do with him. For the past two years I have struggled with filling my life with things of this world and creating idols. My cell phone, facebook, internet, college, boys, etc have filled my life instead of me letting Jesus fill my life. I moved home to go to school at the University Center this semester. God grabbed a hold of my heart this semester. I am laying at the feet of Jesus, My beloved crying out out to him. He is mine and I am his. Just as Luke 7: 47-48 says, " Therefore I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven-for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little." Then Jesus said to her, "Your sins are forgiven." I felt like the sinful woman, which I am a sinful woman. I am loving Jesus with all I have. I am surrending my life to him. Everything is for him. No matter the cost my life is Jesus'. HE HAS FORGIVEN ME. Forgiven me for forsaking my true love, for following the ways of the world, for neglecting my heart, for getting involved with guys I should have never gotten involved with, swearing, making idols. I was full of sin but my beloved shed his blood on the cross so that my sins may be forgiven. He loves me so much, I am always on his mind. He is my beloved. I was a wretched sinner but he has healed me, healed my heart. HE LOVES ME AND HE LOVES YOU. My faith in him has saved me. He has saved me. I am loving him and loving people.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

I Will Waste My Life

I will waste my life I'll be tested and tried
With no regrets inside of me to find I'm at Your feet

I'll leave my father's house and I'll leave my mother
I'll leave all I have known and I'll have no other

I am in love with You There is no cost
I am in love with You There is no loss
I am in love with You I want to take Your name
I am in love with You I want to cling to You Jesus
Just let me cling to You Jesus

I'll say goodbye to my father my mother
I'll turn my back on every other love and
I'll press on yes I'll press on

-I Will Waste My Life By Misty Edwards