I am sick of religion. I am sick of judgement. I am sick of hypocritical people. We are all sinners, even though some people's sin may be more evident than others. All sin is the same. People have claimed that I am living in sin and need to repent. I am not living in sin, I have confessed my sins to my savior. My relationship with Christ is nobody's business. No one has the right to judge me and tell me what to do. So this is why I say I love Jesus but not his followers. I am not in love with the church right now. The church is a disappointment to me as of now and has made me want to have nothing to do with it. This does not mean I don't have a personal relationship with my savior. It is nobody's place to judge me. I have felt judged from my closest family and friends. I was going to move. But God has blessed me with the oppurtunity to be in the Nursing progam so I am going to finish that before I move anywhere. Jesus was nailed to the cross for our sins. Why do we as the church look down on people and judge them? We are all the same. Christ died for all of us. For all of our sins. We have to repent and turn away from those sins. Christians are supposed to show love and compassion. That is why I have loved being a Christian so much, but as of lately I have not seen love or compassion. I have seen hatred and abandonment. A few people have reached out and really showed love and compassion to me. But most are just judging me. I am a Christian saved by Grace, but how would non christans feel about this if they were treated like this? I know if I wasn't a believer I would want nothing to do with it.
Theseverses have really stuck out to me:
Romans 12:10-Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.
Jesus Anointed by a Sinful Woman
36Now one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, so he went to the Pharisee's house and reclined at the table. 37When a woman who had lived a sinful life in that town learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee's house, she brought an alabaster jar of perfume, 38and as she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.
39When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, "If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner."
40Jesus answered him, "Simon, I have something to tell you."
"Tell me, teacher," he said.
41"Two men owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii,[d] and the other fifty. 42Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he canceled the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?"
43Simon replied, "I suppose the one who had the bigger debt canceled."
"You have judged correctly," Jesus said.
44Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, "Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little."
48Then Jesus said to her, "Your sins are forgiven."
49The other guests began to say among themselves, "Who is this who even forgives sins?"
50Jesus said to the woman, "Your faith has saved you; go in peace."
I feel like the sinful woman in this passage. I feel like people think my sins are so great that they cant love me or stand the sight of me. But Jesus has forgiven me for any sins I have commited and I am forgiven. I would like to find friends and family that love me for me whether I have made mistakes or not. Judgemental people are driving me to not want to claim myself as a Christian. I would like the body of Christ to show love and compassion not hatred and condemnation.
Gigi
